This isn't the way things should be. This can't be the way things should end. Things should be...better. The end brighter...
I've always pictured things to be so different than how they are. I've always pictured him to be someone else entirely, not the shadow of the person he once was or could have been. And now this. Damn it. Anything but this. This can't be the legacy he leaves behind. This can't be the way it ends.
But it is. And it will be.
Yet again, I'm left to ponder life's questions and ironies alone...Thoughts invade my conscious reality. Nightmares tear through my subconscious state. Always the one left behind to make light of a dire situation, to remain hopeful when faith is lost, to keep onward towards the unknown...
My lesson to learn. My punishment to bear. My hell to endure. My sin to purge. My life to redeem.
This isn't how it's supposed to be. This isn't how it's supposed to end.
Destiny, fate, karma, luck...Whatever the fuck you want to name it. THIS WILL NOT BE.
It can't be.
It won't be.