Last night, BB and I came home to a tragedy. My calico Ryukin goldfishes, Rainer and Addie, were no longer with us.
When BB broke the news to me, my first reaction was anger. I cursed. I stomped my foot. I refused to believe that my beloved babies were gone. You see, Rainer and Addie were with us for only a couple of years, and goldfishes are meant to last longer. I don't know what happened and why their lives were cut short. But I do know it must have somehow been my fault. I should have been more attentive. I was their caregiver. Sigh.
After my initial reaction, I broke down and cried. BB held me tight and kissed away my tears. Why?! Why did they leave so soon? Why does anything bad happen? Why does everything bad seem to happen at once? Why us? Why them? ARGH! All I could do was cry.
BB, Harper, Artemis, and I said our goodbyes, and then Rainer and Addie were on their way. I hope and pray they felt no pain, only pure love as members of our family. I believe in my heart that they swam into that bright, warm light together, eternal soulmates in goldfish heaven.
We love you always, Rainer and Addie!