2011 will definitely be a year of change for me. Although the road ahead is daunting, I feel a deep sense of relief and a renewed sense of excitement. This time, however, I'm traveling down the road alone.
She said, "I love you and I care about you, but...I'm not in love with you." Her honesty took me by surprise, but her words didn't break me as I thought they would. I simply didn't understand why it took her this long to tell me the truth, and I don't know why she decided to lay bare her soul on New Year's Eve. I gather she wanted a new start for the new year. I won't lie and say this doesn't hurt, even though I've felt the gradual decline of our relationship for some time now. She claims we've lost our spark, and I honestly think maybe we didn't share one to begin with.
I understand now what that fortune teller warned me about years ago. She told me to be careful not to marry simply for the sake of being married. I paid no heed to her reading, believing none of what she foretold. And in time, I forgot. Now I remember clearly as I replay the night's events in my head. Was I simply in this relationship because I wanted to be in a relationship? Granted, I loved her, still love her, and will always love her in a way, but I don't believe she was ever the one. Our love will never be remembered in stories passed on from generation to generation, but I have hope that someday I'll find the one who'll set my soul on fire. And that love will no doubt be remembered for all time.
Happy New Year!
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